im so broken

Mike and I broke up awhile ago and this time it’s for real….if your gonna ask me if I’m hurt i’ll answer you honestly of course I’m hurt…but maybe being single is not at all that bad..

I haven’t been single since highschool I already rejected guys who woo me in my college days…when I started a relationship with JC (when I was on my first year college) I felt the so called SERIOUS RELATIONSHIP and contentment…. when we broke up Michael entered the picture and voila!! ….

 Now that we’ve broken up….I’m hurt I would be insane if I’m not but I know in God’s time I will b alright….

I never regreted ever single moment I spent with him…

to the guy I missed the most

I kissed him but I know that he’s not closing his eyes…

I slept with him but I can feel no passion

 I was with him but his mind wanders

I hugged him but I felt cold

the things that made me so secure are all but gone

 If he could turn his head he will see me still standing here waiting for him to go back…

I’m shouting….but he can’t hear me….

I let him go now that he’s with someone..I can feel his absence,, how I long for him….how I want to kiss him liked I never kissed him before

how I want to run in his arms and feel his warm and tight embrace

 How I wish to spend the nights with him like it will never end

and  

how I wish I could turn back the time when he thinks of no one but ME

look at me

when people are in love….we can tell it on th way they look in each others eye..

Up to now I still can’t understand why they would glare at each other…hahaha I’m so bitter

Even with the many realtionship I had I never had the chance to do this even with the guys I went intimate with….not once not ever..

maybe I was afraid to look at them and see that I’m not there…maybe it’s much better if I don’t know about that…