to the guy I missed the most

I kissed him but I know that he’s not closing his eyes…

I slept with him but I can feel no passion

 I was with him but his mind wanders

I hugged him but I felt cold

the things that made me so secure are all but gone

 If he could turn his head he will see me still standing here waiting for him to go back…

I’m shouting….but he can’t hear me….

I let him go now that he’s with someone..I can feel his absence,, how I long for him….how I want to kiss him liked I never kissed him before

how I want to run in his arms and feel his warm and tight embrace

 How I wish to spend the nights with him like it will never end

and  

how I wish I could turn back the time when he thinks of no one but ME

look at me

when people are in love….we can tell it on th way they look in each others eye..

Up to now I still can’t understand why they would glare at each other…hahaha I’m so bitter

Even with the many realtionship I had I never had the chance to do this even with the guys I went intimate with….not once not ever..

maybe I was afraid to look at them and see that I’m not there…maybe it’s much better if I don’t know about that…

if you can’t see it, doesn’t mean it don’t exist

]I do hope I will be able to find a new job that’s far from teaching…..

I’m watching METEOR GARDEN (VCD not in GMA) and I know it’s baduy and corny but I will say it anyway..I MISS F4 so much hahaha

i don’t make sense anymore

little faith

” do you believe in GOD?”

“have you seen,felt,tasted nor heard God?”

My mom sent me into a well-known,exclusive, catholic school here in our place….where people expects you to be good,respectful, full of initiative,smart/intelligent and most of all RELIGOUS….

I admit that as a child I loved Jesus…God, Mama mary and a bunch of saints that can save your soul….

 but now….I don’t know if I still believe that there’s a God nor saints….

Dreadful things happened to me….and believe me everytime it happens….I pray that God will put a stop on this but hell no…It happens all the time…that’s when I started doubting my belief…it’s seems that GOD is not listening to my woes, my fears and my prayers…

 I read it somewhere “FAITH IS SOMETHING THAT  YOU HOLD ON  WHEN THERE’S NO MORE HOPE “

FAITH IS BELIEVING IN SOMETHING YOU CANNOT SEE.. yeah right!!

I WISH THAT THERE Will COME a TIME wheN I can SAY GOD is TRUE

I’m learning the art of LETTING-GO

 letting go isnt so much as allowing yourself to give up. at times its just realizing that you owe yourself to be unburdened..

the truth

I’m planning to resign next month

Promises arE maDe to be Broken

i hate broken promises…

 you promised you’ll come back but now you’re nowhere to find…..

 I’m so lost….without you…

please FIND ME

you should hate me

people around me should hate me…

god must hated me…

you hated me