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i am watching meteor garden again for the nth time 🙂

BTW it’s my mother’s 3rd anniversary….I wasn’t able to greet my sister what the hell she did not greet me:)

if you can’t see it, doesn’t mean it don’t exist

]I do hope I will be able to find a new job that’s far from teaching…..

I’m watching METEOR GARDEN (VCD not in GMA) and I know it’s baduy and corny but I will say it anyway..I MISS F4 so much hahaha

i don’t make sense anymore 🙂

i’m sick (literally)

Since last week I’ve been experiencing minor headaches, cold  and a dry throat…I thought I could just carry on with it but hell no with the little help of rain last Friday my body finally gave up I become ill….

I woke up last Saturday with a headache and a slight fever but since Mike and I had a date I did not mind the pain 🙂 but I was so wrong….In the middle of the movie (HARRY POTTER) my body stats to shivver, I started coughing and sneezing. Mike was really mad because I was sick na daw but I insisted on going out and I drunk ZAGU (m fave)…..

When I went home I was complaining and told my Tita that I feel really really sick…I hate drinking medicine :<

by the way I wasn’t able to wait for another month I already resigned last Friday I felt so relieved 🙂 I just hope I will be able to find a new Job……

 I’m still figuring out the reason why I got so sick

and these are some of them :

1. stress sa work

2. no friends sa work/ walang mapag labasan ng sama ng loob

3. malayo ang work

4. di ko na kayang magpaka plastic.

5. pag ma MOP sa classroom at pagkuha ng chlorine sa storage room

6.mababa ang sweldo

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I miss ……. especially when I’m sick 😦

“kahit ako na lang magkasakit wag lang ikaw”

awwwwwwwwwwww 🙂

FUCK DONT WATCH METEOR GARDEN ON GMA THE VOICES SUCKS>>>>

little faith

” do you believe in GOD?”

“have you seen,felt,tasted nor heard God?”

My mom sent me into a well-known,exclusive, catholic school here in our place….where people expects you to be good,respectful, full of initiative,smart/intelligent and most of all RELIGOUS….

I admit that as a child I loved Jesus…God, Mama mary and a bunch of saints that can save your soul….

 but now….I don’t know if I still believe that there’s a God nor saints….

Dreadful things happened to me….and believe me everytime it happens….I pray that God will put a stop on this but hell no…It happens all the time…that’s when I started doubting my belief…it’s seems that GOD is not listening to my woes, my fears and my prayers…

 I read it somewhere “FAITH IS SOMETHING THAT  YOU HOLD ON  WHEN THERE’S NO MORE HOPE ”

FAITH IS BELIEVING IN SOMETHING YOU CANNOT SEE.. yeah right!!

I WISH THAT THERE Will COME a TIME wheN I can SAY GOD is TRUE

Fix YOu by Coldplay…I do hope someone will sing this song for ME :(

When you try your best, but you don’t succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can’t sleep
Stuck in reverse

When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can’t replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

High up above or down below
When you’re too in love to let it go
If you never try you’ll never know
Just what you’re worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I…

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I…

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

I’m learning the art of LETTING-GO

 letting go isnt so much as allowing yourself to give up. at times its just realizing that you owe yourself to be unburdened..

the truth

I’m planning to resign next month 🙂

if only

If only you can hear me
Id let you know how i miss you so
forgive me, i was blind to see
i was a fool to ever let you go
believe in me i want you to know
that i have realised theres no one else id rather be
but then i know that you have found yourself somebody new
hope i could find you in another place and time
proven its true, im still love inlove with youEverynight ive been dreaming
about the time when you were mine
the memories i will be keeping
oh, i was wrong to let a chance go by
so listen now i never will deny
that i have realised theres no one else id rather be
but then i know you have found yourself somebody new
hope i could find you in another place in time
proven its true, im still inlove with you

If only you can hear me
id let you know oh how i miss you so
believe in me i want you to know
that i have realised theres no one else id rather be
but then i know that you have found yourself somebody knew
hope i could find you in another place and time
proven its true, im still inlove with you

Promises arE maDe to be Broken

i hate broken promises…

 you promised you’ll come back but now you’re nowhere to find…..

 I’m so lost….without you…

please FIND ME

you should hate me

people around me should hate me…

god must hated me…

you hated me