to the guy I missed the most

I kissed him but I know that he’s not closing his eyes…

I slept with him but I can feel no passion

 I was with him but his mind wanders

I hugged him but I felt cold

the things that made me so secure are all but gone

 If he could turn his head he will see me still standing here waiting for him to go back…

I’m shouting….but he can’t hear me….

I let him go now that he’s with someone..I can feel his absence,, how I long for him….how I want to kiss him liked I never kissed him before

how I want to run in his arms and feel his warm and tight embrace

 How I wish to spend the nights with him like it will never end

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how I wish I could turn back the time when he thinks of no one but ME